LOSING DAISY

With tear stained eyes and a body with no tears left to cry, I’m going to get through this the best I can about the loss of our precious pup, Daisy Mae! On Wednesday, July 31, our sweet little “sis” as we often called her, went to be with the Angels. I truly have so much to say about it but I’m having a hard time getting the words out so I will share with you what my heart can right now. Sharing this gives me some solace. 




First of all, can I say, grief is such a lonely lonely thing! No one grieves the same way and when you feel like you can’t fully express yourself, the loneliness is debilitating. My heart aches that my family is not grieving the same way I am, but again, I live in a house full of men and I guess it’s just what they have to do! The boys are all heading back to college and I dread the empty house. Maybe I need to get a job, LOL!


From the time she was a pup, she was the sweetest soul! Never once did she leave her boundaries, always told us what she needed was so quiet and so loving, such a good girl as we always said. 

2 months old


4 months old

She was the heart and soul of our family. She was lucky to have us and we were so lucky to have her!



Daisy healed up so many holes in our heart. Some we didn’t even know were still there. 


At Grandma's and ready for the 4th of July!!

Daisy love so many things. She loved her doggy bed, daddy rubbing her belly, she absolutely adored the snow and LOVED to roll around in it! She loved laying in the grass with the wind in her hair. She had favorite treats and she especially loved all kinds of berries and pizza. She loved her brothers, her grandma and her mommy and daddy so much!

Of course she was getting old, but on a vet visit in April, despite having a mouth infection and going on anabiotic‘s, the vet thought that she had quite a lot of time left because she looked so good for her age. We noticed her eating habits had changed just a little bit but we attributed it to old age. We would have to try different foods and find ones that she seem to enjoy. However, that Sunday she stopped eating completely and before bed, let out a cry that I knew was different and I stayed up with her the entire night until I could get her to the vets the next day. She had lost several pounds and after a major blood panel it was determined that she was in 99% kidney failure, the worst they had ever seen. We knew after her major surgery 2 1/2 years ago which thankfully gave us 2 1/2 more wonderful years with her, that her pancreas was also declining but it has wasn’t anything alarming back then. I knew the minute the sweet vet walked back in what the decision would be. However, we didn’t want to tell the kids yet, especially because one of our sons was to have a college summer course final that was very important that Wednesday morning. We knew there was no way he could take this test if he knew and later he told us he was grateful and got an A on the test! Plus, to be honest, I just wanted some time with my sweet girl. So they made her comfortable and we took her home. However, she was never able to sleep the next two nights and I had to hold her in my arms and try and find different ways to get comfortable, all the while giving her syringes of water, anti-nausea and pain medications. 
One of our sons was able to capture this photo with my girl an hour before we took her.
I wore blue and yellow because these are two colors dogs can actually see and I wanted her to see her mama!

We sat in the cold room and each held her saying our goodbyes. 
Wrapped in pink towel, I held her as the vet slowly helped her slip away. I told her it was a joy to me her mama and we loved her so much. I felt her body go limp and she was gone. We sat with her for a bit as I didn’t want to let her go. Everyone at the vets office was compassionate and caring every step of the way.

Devastated, we returned home and all I wanted to do was go to sleep so I didn’t have to think about it anymore and I was absolutely exhausted from all those hours awake. (79 hours straight) but we noticed there was a very large package on the porch and I saw it was the console table that wasn’t due to arrive until Friday. What makes this special and I believe, a sign from above, is that there was a note attached to it in a plastic bag that said “thank you just wasn’t enough” with a doggy in a dog bed on it. If you knew about Daisy, you know her dog bed was kind of a big deal. And I know it was her saying thank you just wasn’t enough for not only putting her out of her misery but for taking such good care of her all these years. 

1st time in "her bed"

Like I said, the vets office was nothing short of extraordinary as we have come to know many of them personally through the years. They called me a week later to pick up her remains. The crematory had found a sweet little wood box with flowers that look like daisies on top and I took the vets office flowers with an arrangement where I found a big yellow Gerbera daisy to thank them for all their comfort and support. They even sent a card with special messages from all the staff about Daisy including the Dr's. 
A huge thank you to all my family and friends that have been so sweet and comforting as well, especially my mom, who often took care of her on our trips and is grieving as well. Daisy is now back home with us and that gives me some comfort.



Pets love you even when you don’t love yourself. 
Give them every bit of love you can because that’s the only thing they know how to give to us, pure unconditional love and joy!




I know the year's first snowfall will be from 
you Sweet Daisy! I Love you!







58 comments:

  1. Andrea... I am so sorry about your sweet Daisy. It is such a heartbreak to lose a fur baby. Just give it time.

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  2. Oh Andrea, I am so sorry! I knew something was going on, but wasn't sure what exactly. I wish I could send you all a great big hug. xoxox

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  3. Andrea I am so proud of you for finding your words and writing this beautiful tribute to your faithful companion and forever love, Daisy Mae. I know it was hard but I hope it was healing too. You're in my thoughts and prayers my love!!
    xo,
    Kellyann

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  4. Such a beautiful post to Daisy Mae, and I know it wasn't easy to write. Continuing to pray for you and your family in the days ahead. Sending you hugs from Louisiana. Love you!

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  5. Oh Andrea. I am so sorry. I couldn't even get through your post without crying. Although I never met Daisy Mae, I know she was the sweetest dog from everything you said about her. She reminds me so much of our Ella. I know how difficult it is to lose a pet. It's a feeling you are never prepared for no matter how many times it has happened to you. This is a wonderful tribute to Daisy Mae and I know she had so many years of happiness because of you and your family. Continued prayers and love to you and your family.

    xo, Rachel

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  6. I know this was difficult to write but hope that it helps with your healing. I know how hard it is to lose a pet and this is a beautiful tribute to your sweet Daisy. Sending hugs!

    Jill - Doused in Pink

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  7. I'm so, so sorry for your loss, sweet lady! Such a beautiful post.

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  8. Oh Andrea--I am so so sorry for your loss! This post brought tears to my eyes. There is nothing like losing a pet. Sending so many prayers and hugs your way!

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  9. Oh my friend, I'm crying with you. Daisy Mae was such a sweet pup that I loved seeing when you would share about her. Our pets really become such important family members that capture a special place in our hearts. I know that no words can change things, but please know I've been thinking of you and you have been in my prayers. Thank you for sharing these moments and your heart with us <3

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  10. It's the saddest thing when our beloved pets pass. People without pets just don't understand how attached we get. I love how you said it Andrea: Pets love you even when you don’t love yourself.
    Sending you huge hugs my dear, dear friend. I was tearing up at the end of this post and we love you so much.
    XOOX

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  11. Crying tears. Hugs Andrea.

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  12. Oh Andrea. So sorry for your loss. Losing a pet is incredibly hard. You beautifully described her and paid homage to her sweet life. Big hugs.

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  13. I'm so sorry, Andrea. I can't imagine what you are going through but I'm sending you so much love. I know that Daisy felt and still feels your love! xo, Biana

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  14. Oh Andrea, my heart breaks for you. I am praying for you sweet friend! The loss of a pet is so so hard. When we lost our first pug a few years ago, it was heart wrenching and I still can't think about him without tearing up! His remains are in a few similar box!
    I know sweet Daisy is running in Heaven pain free. Big Hugs

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  15. All the tears over here. I am so sorry for your loss. These sweet doggies work their way into our hearts and never leave. Daisy was such a cutie, and she was so lucky to have you as her mommy. Sending you all my hugs, sweet friend.

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  16. I am so sorry for your loss, Andrea! I've been in that same "lonely grief boat" and it is an incredibly difficult place. All the best to you as you cope with this difficult loss. Daisy was so very lucky to have you in her life!

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  17. I'm so sorry to hear about Daisy. She was so precious! You are in my thoughts, Andrea!

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  18. Mis lagrimas también salieron, es triste la partida, más cuando nos han acompañado durante tantos años...son parte nuestra...Ella debe estar muy feliz y agradecida de haber compartido su vida con ustedes...

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  19. I am so sorry for your loss. I know this must have been so hard and you will miss her every day.

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  20. Oh Andrea, I am so very sorry for your loss XOXO

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  21. Oh friend, I know this was so hard for you to write, but it was beautiful. You wearing colors she could see, the compassion of the office, the time you had with her...so many feelings. I am still sending my love and keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. I love you!

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  22. Oh goodness! Heartbroken with you! It's just so hard! They say grief is the price we pay for love...how true. Sending up prayers for your shattered heart. We are so blessed that we get to keep the memories...hoping one day you can share your heart again with a another furry love. The world needs more pet owners like you. Hang in there.

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  23. I'm so so so sorry to hear about the loss of your sweet Daisy. I always loved seeing her on your blog, she was such a cutie and you could tell such a special member of the family! I'm sending you hugs and hoping the days get easier as you miss your sweet baby! ❤️

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  24. Oh my. I was tearing up just reading about your sweet Daisy! I am so very sorry hon. You wrote a lovely Tribute to her and I can't imagine, but know that our doggies mean so very much. I call Gibby and Truffy my Angels as I beleive they are here and helped me when I was at my worst. I loved reading about your sweet girl. Thinking of you, sending hugs and saying prayers.
    jess xx
    www.elegantlydressedandstylish.com

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  25. I have YET to get through a post like this & not just have tears running down my face. ITS SO HARD. They are your babies. In every sense of the word. i'm so sorry my friend.

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  26. Oh Andrea, this made me even sadder for you, reading this post. Daisy sounded like the best little doggie and I know you miss her so much. Your family will be in my prayers. I hope your heart starts to mend soon.

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  27. What a sweet tribute to your sweet girl. Dogs show us true unconditional love and yes, they love us even when we don't love ourselves! I hope Daisy and Ginger are having a fluffy good time together up in doggy heaven! I am so sorry for your loss and know I am here for you. This is the hardest kind of grief, I think. Love you sweet friend!

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  28. Awe, this was a sweet but sad post. I know you could barely see the screen to type with so many tears in your eyes. Blink and let them fall girlfriend. Your right, we all grieve different. Grief usually hits me weeks or months down the road when I am alone. I know Daisy knew she was loved. I love you and pray your pain will grow weaker each day even when the snow starts to fall.
    Love and Hugs
    Lisa

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  29. I'm sorry for your loss, Andrea.

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  30. I teared up reading your story. I went through a sad time myself when I lost my furbaby, Peter, in 2018. I still think about him every day.

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  31. I am so sorry for your loss. Truly losing a pet is as hard as losing a loved one. Blessings to you and your family.

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  32. I am so, so sorry to hear this... it is so hard when it is unexpected. My 13 yr old cat was diagnosed with diabetes right before we left for Maui. It has been TOUGH. What we do for our beloved pets, though. These are all such sweet photos of her!

    Carrie
    curlycraftymom.com

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  33. Such a beautiful post about a beautiful little girl who brought such love to your family and who felt your love in return. My heart breaks for you in your loss. I'm truly sorry.

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  34. Bless your heart, I do hope it's getting somewhat easier for you. I'm so glad you have all these awesome pics to remind you of the wonderful years you had with her. Sending extra hugs your way.

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  35. This is a beautiful tribute to a special dog. Each word was straight from your heart! I am so sorry you are going through this! Praying for you! She had an amazing life full of love!

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  36. I decided to read your post tonight after work and after I had finished commenting on other blogs because I knew it would be hard to get through...and I was right. What a beautiful tribute to your girl. From someone who believes in signs, the fact that the bed was delivered on the same day with that note...well....there are no words or explanations needed. It was your sweet girl FOR SURE giving you a wink from above. What a truly incredible blessing. Wow. May she fill your heart with happy and loving memories always!! XO

    Shauna

    www.lipglossandlace.net

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  37. So sorry Andrea for your loss of your fur baby! I know it's hard bc I lost my golden yrs ago and I still think about her. Tears are steaming down my face reading this! I'm giving you a virtual hug! You'll be in my thoughts and prayers hoping your heart will heal and not be so heavy! 😢

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  38. Crying tears with you, I'm so sorry for your loss. Your beloved Daisy looks adorable. Sending you a hug because I know exactly how you feel. But I can see the love from all the family and she definitely knew that she was loved. J Mummabstylish

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  39. I am so very sorry. It s awfull to loze a pet!.

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  40. So sorry for your loss, Andrea!

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  41. I'm really very sorry for your loss, Andrea. Sending you a big hug and lots of love.

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  42. I'm so sorry about sweet Daisy. It's so hard to lose a pet, and especially one that has been with you all through the days of your kids' growing up. Hang in there, friend.

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  43. So sorry about your loss friend. Glad that you got 2.5 more years with her. She seemed like a truly special dog.

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  44. So sorry for your loss. I am a total dog person and my dogs are a big part of our family you story was beautiful to read.

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  45. Andrea, I’m so sorry for the loss of your sweet Daisy Mae! What a heart-wrenching post. I know the grief must be hard but I send you and your family my love and prayers for this difficult time. I’m sure you’ll find the small moments to remember her in the months to come! Xoxo

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  46. Such a beautiful tribute to your sweet girl! She was lucky to have such an amazing life with a family who loved her so dearly!

    -Ashley
    Le Stylo Rouge

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  47. Oh Andrea my heart breaks for you. I know how very painful the loss of a pet is. I know how you feel about feeling like the only one grieving too, I lost my sweet kitty this summer and I was so very sad. I cried and cried for days, while no one else in the house did. I hope you get some peace soon, I know you will always miss your sweet girl, you gave her a beautiful life.

    -Brooke

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  48. Susan13.8.19

    My heart is breaking as I read this. I'm so sorry for your loss. I have a Daisy, too; she is 10 and I love her to pieces. It's evident you loved your Daisy so much, and I'm sure she knew she was loved. You were lucky to have each other.

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  49. I'm so sorry for your loss :( Our pups are like babies to us and it is the hardest thing to go through losing them. She was such a lucky girl to have a family that loved her so much <3

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  50. I am so very sorry for the loss of Daisy. Sending lots of love!

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  51. oh my heart aches for you sweet Andrea.Tears stream down my face as I hold our sweet Izzy. I have no words, just hugs of comfort from one fur baby mama to another xo

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  52. Oh, I'm so sorry! What a beautiful tribute to your Daisy! I am sitting here sobbing. I can see how very loved Daisy was. Our 13 year old Sunny is in early kidney failure right now, so I'm feeling the beginnings of your pain. I'm glad you shared these memories of your Daisy at Thursday Favorite Things, so we could get to know her too.

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  53. I am so sorry for your loss sweet friend! I can't imagine the depths of your pain. Sending you the biggest hugs! This is a beautiful tribute to your sweet Daisy! She was so loved!!

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  54. I am so sorry to hear about your sweet Daisy's passing... It is sooo hard when our pups get old! I still miss our Golden and Skeeter has been gone as many years as he was alive - 14+. Our Yoda, a Peke, is 13 this year and still doing well but the heat takes its toll now.

    Wishing you many happy memories and much love from your Daisy! She looks like she was a wonderful friend,
    Hugs,
    Barb

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    1. p.s. Will you stop by and share your story at Share Your Style #220? I am the current host. I'd love to share Daisy's story with my readers. <3

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  55. I'm deeply sorry for your loss dear. Sending hugs your way!

    Jessica | notjessfashion.com

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  56. So sorry over the loss of your sweet Daisy. They are truly family members and it's so hard when they leave us. We lost our Charlie 3 years ago and there's not a day that goes by that I don't think of him. Knowing that we will be reunited one day eases the pain of losing him. I hope it does you as well. Sending you hugs and prayers.

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  57. Aww Andrea, I am so sad about the loss of your Daisy Mae. I have tears running down my cheeks as I read about your dear fur baby. I have been there with our sweet Sasha and Lacy. They give unconditional love and it is sad they don't have long lives. may her sweet memories soothe your broken heart. Thank you sharing your sweet Daisy Mae's story. Big Hugs.

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